One Person

so I found these on one of my old blogs... known as a xanga. it brought back some memories. Ones I wish weren't still there.. but what can you do. I liked what I wrote so I thought I would post it. These are all about how I wasted so much time on one person. We girls are silly.

BROKEN DOWN WORLD
Look at the sad little man, with the sad dark eyes.

He's looking away against everyone's will, they all want to find the prize.

The prize is to find out what those sad, dark eyes, are hiding from the world.

Little do they know the secret is too hard to tell, they will never know that behind the wall is a broken down world.

FALLEN
I've fallen for you
I didn't think it would ever happen
But I'm on the ground and I need some help up
I can't believe it, how easily I gave in.

I guess I was reaching for a dream
and then the next thing I knew I was down and out
I've fallen for you that's all I know
It's the only thing I can figure out.

You didn't mean for me to fall for you
maybe I fell so hard because until now I never acknowleged how I felt
one day I was staring in your eyes,
and the next thing I knew I was ready to melt

FORGOTTEN
I'VE FORGOTTEN HOW IT FEELS FOR YOU TO BE MINE.
I've forgotten everything about you,
everything I loved and hated about you.
I've forgotten how I was your mistake,
but how you weren't mine.
I've forgotten how you hurt me
when I wasn't the only girl you wanted to see.
I've forgotten how you drove me insane
And I've forgotten how I enjoyed my insanity.
I've forgotten about how you didn't seem to care,
how I felt or how I loved you.
I've forgotten all the nights I cried myself to sleep over you.
I've forgotten how many mornings I woke up and wondered if somehow love wouldn't be too strong a word that day.
I've forgotten how I hated you.
I've forgotten how you didn't care if I did.
I've forgotten how my day would brighten just to see you.
And I've forgotten how you wouldn't even notice mine.
I've forgotten that when you started to care
I was too scared.
I've forgotten how I let you slip away.
I've forgotten how it feels for you to be mine.


NEW YEAR'S EFFECT
You're gone,
They're gone.
Those feelings for you.
I don't seem to have a memory,
Of all the dreams that would haunt my sleep relentlessly.
I knew one day you would be gone.
I wasn't sure when, but the shadow of you has dissapeared.
I see you and nothing,
You speak and nothing.
Just joy, because the heartache alone w/ you has gone.
I didn't know how this would feel.
I thought it would be lonely
w/ no one to hold me.
But instead of tears, this smile I can't conceal.
All I know is you're gone and there's nothing,
Yet, there's everything.

BLUR
I look out the blurred windows
So I can’t see what isn’t there
I know what I won’t see
and that is you to visit me

You say you like me..
You say you care
but once again.
To my feelings you weren’t fair

I find myself surrounded once again
Who will be chosen?
I’m stuck in the position
I seem to be frozen

To the road I know my heart wants to take
but my head screams out to be wary
Once before he seemed to be fake
The feeling of losing him again.. it’s scary