mind crossing.

Have you ever just been going about daily business and someone's face popped in your head. Why does this happen? Are you worried about them? Thinking about them? In love? A friend? Or just subconsciously wondering about them...

There have been multiple times when I can't get my mind off of someone. Whether it is a friend, boy, of relative. Sometimes I think people are placed on our hearts.
There has been a friend lately that I have not been able to stop thinking about. He is so messed up, truly confused. I can't help him - and getting close just hurts me. He is the type of person who can find something that frustrates me or hurts me and can cut me to the core & continue to pour salt in the wound. But yet.. He still has a place in my heart as a dear friend? It seems weird - but it's true.

There is another girl whom I think about once in a while. She is so precious to me & has been a friend since I moved to Kentucky. She was asked the question, "how are you, really?" She didn't know how to answer. I worry about this girl all the time. She seems to be searching for something & just hasn't been able to find it yet. But she is looking in the wrong place. We all do this at times - try to find our identity in other things. I am not labeling her or saying she is making a huge mistake - because we all do it. But the pattern of sadness in her life makes me sad.

And the last one that I think about... wow. I just know that I love him. He is my family. He has always been there for me & could be considered a big brother. He takes up for me, puts up with me, and sometimes has a heart to heart with me. He is such a wonderful guy - but is just so distracted right now. I don't get to see him that much & we are totally different people - but we both know that if we needed the other - that the answer is yes. We are family - and I worry about him. He randomly comes on my mind - and I worry if at that time he is searching for himself in dangerous things.

So as I lay my head on my pillow - these people's faces run through my mind & the one that I worry most about is the first. Mainly because he has no idea what truth is & will not listen. - That scares me.