Dream

Your unfailing love is better than life.

How beautiful would it be if this was our approach to life. That verse has helped me look at things in a new perspective.

I thought it would be a good idea to start off on a positive note - because I hate to sound like I am complaining. But the truth is... this week has been one of those that makes you question whether you will ever be capable or if inadequate is as far as you'll get.

I have realized that I have no balance in my life. I am either all or nothing in a certain area of my life. The different areas are: School, Work, Social, and BCM/Council.

When I am doing well at work- school suffers. When I am keeping up in my classes - Work and social suffer. And when I have a social life I forget about everything - which happened the other night.

But there is good news. I think I have broken off another layer of my hard social shell. But that is only by grace. It usually takes me a long time to feel welcome in a group - especially close enough to someone to open up. It is a silly thing - but after two years I actually feel comfortable on campus and with a group. It's a good feeling.

So... there is a new term that I made up - 'blinking' it means when you are open to an idea and considering it - and trying to applicate it. I am 'blinking' at missions and it is the most exciting thing that has been on my heart recently. I can't say that I have a strong passion for it yet - because well.. I am just not. But when I think about this summer and going to the Dominican - My heart starts to race a little and I just want to be on a plane and surrounded by the beautiful people on the 1:8 team. There is just something in me that is starting to stir when I think about the nations.

I went to conversational english last night at the BCM. That's right - I missed Lost to go talk with international students - it was a sacrifice.. if you could say that.. But I am trying to learn this thing called 'prioritizing' and put it into action.

But this spring break might look more different than I ever thought - hopefully - if the plan is able to happen and everything works out. I will post something about it later when I am sure - but BeachReach will not be happening for Miss McGuire this year.

I am excited to see where the Lord leads the next few steps of my life. He is already taking me places I never thought I would be - and providing opportunities that I never imagined I would be able to be a part of.

let's just say that His blessings are so apparent - even in the midst of failing quizzes and a busy life.

And in other points of my life.. that happen to be nonexistent... which I am not complaining about - I mean.. it's all in God's timing. Don't get me wrong - I am completely satisfied with where I am now... But a girl can't help but dream.

This song is so sweet - if you haven't heard it ... you are deprived and need to go listen right now. But it's Michael Buble's "Everything" I think it would be wonderful to have a guy think this about you.. So I guess this is my girly... this is soo cute.. and as I sing it.. I can't help but thing.. "one day.."

You're a falling star, You're the get away car.
You're the line in the sand when I go too far.
You're the swimming pool, on an August day.
And you're the perfect thing to see.

And you play it coy, but it's kinda cute.
Ah, When you smile at me you know exactly what you do.
Baby don't pretend, that you don't know it's true.
Cause you can see it when I look at you.

And I can't believe, uh that I'm your man,
And I get to kiss you baby just because I can.
Whatever comes our way, ah we'll see it through,
And you know that's what our love can do.

And in this crazy life, and through these crazy times
It's you, it's you, You make me sing.
You're every line, you're every word, you're everything.
You're every song, and I sing along.
'Cause you're my everything.
Yeah, yeah