Lord, Blessed Be Your Name

"You give & take away, and my heart will choose to say, "Lord, blessed be your name!"

it is the truth. Friends leave. and we wonder why it happens. God gave them at just the perfect time & when our paths call in separate directions He will raise other people to fill in those holes created by the loss (changing) of those that we held so dear.

I had a group of wonderful friends last year that made each day seem a little brighter & they have all been removed from my life, due to decisions they have made. I miss them, that is definitely for sure, but I miss who they were. Who they have become is someone that I do not know. It is quite sad, I wish they were as kind, caring, and fun as they used to be. We all went our separate ways.

one has fallen into Satan's trap through lots of temptation and feelings of loneliness, I tried to help this person, tell them that I was there. But they keep listening to the Tempter. I have no idea why, maybe because it is easy to accept the pain instead of try to do something to stop it...

the second has become one thing, a jerk. He used to seem to care a little bit about others, but now, all that has flown out the window. We used to have fun together, we used to laugh, and play games, and drink coffee while talking about the future. But now ... we fight. ...

the third and last companion is currently in California with his wife. I would like to say something about him and who he is now, but I don't know. Knowing that he is in California is a huge step up on the information ladder. He said that we were his friends, that he knew it. But he has let our friendship dwindle to nothing. This is probably the saddest case, because he could very easily be injured, or killed & I would have no idea. This person that I invested so much time & poured out my heart to on many occasions doesn't seem to care. He is preoccupied. What a horrible thing to be when a friend just wants to care for you?

But God has risen up wonderful people to help me along in this journey called life. I am surrounded by beautiful people, that love me. & if one day we will go our separate ways. I will know that around the corner I will have Jesus & that is all the reassurance that I need to get through the day

:)