1. a feeling and expectation or desire for a certain thing to happen

2. a person or thing that may help or save someone

3. grounds for believing that something good may happen

archaic - feeling of trust.

What is hope?

I really can't give you a definition.

But I can tell you what it isn't...

- fear

- anxiety

- distrust

- anger

- bitterness

I have recently understood that this hope thing comes every day... you can't just have it once and have it forever.

I have to continually accept that I need God. That I don't have hope without Him.

I learned that hope isn't about me just fixing things, it's much deeper than that.

A dear friend asked me what hope was. I couldn't answer. I couldn't explain the joy from it. Just like I can't explain what it is about sitting under the blue sky on a sunny summer day that makes me not be able to stop smiling.

It is peace... which when I think about that - I can't explain either.

what I am asking my friend to do is to seek hope. Even though I don't know how to express in words what hope is, I do know where I find it. In the cross. In the fact that it's not about me and all about the glory of God. I find hope in the fact that I don't have to 'fix' things on my own - for the simple reason: I CAN'T. and neither can you.... remember that.

It's Christ through us... and we need Him so badly - each day, each minute, each second.

Smile List...

So I made a new friend, Jennifer. And I noticed she was already following me ... and I read her blog.. and saw the name of my blog as one of her 10... She wanted me to write 10 things that make me happy, so here is my list.

1. Sunny days with blue skies, chacos and free time
2. My Mamaw's creations from crocheting.
3. A beach and a good book.
4. Play a song that I have written on the guitar
5. Playing tennis with friends and being a little competitive
6. Accomplishing a goal
7. Learning Spanish
8. Seeing old friends
9. Sipping on a raspberry mocha while reading the Bible.
10. Thinking about hope and grace

Now I have chosen 10 other blogs to do the same thing! ( I will just put names instead of blog names...)

1. Erin Bloss

2. Samantha Crowe

3. Kelsey Barber

4. Cameran Smith

5. Marcus Bagwell

6. Abby Smithhart

7. Sarah Sprinkle

8. Sarah Mack

9. Emily Harrod

10. Mitch Henson

On My Mind

• Last night - when there were many things to do - 10 girls met to pray for campus and the semester. It was a beautiful thing. I am so thankful to have friends who desire to do this.

• I am taking a Spanish class this semester. It is the second level. I am already being challenged. I can't wait to learn the language!

• I am continuing to write some songs. It helps me to release whatever emotions are building up.

• A trip to Kenya may be happening this summer with a friend.

• My dream of starting a coffee shop has become even more of something I want to pursue.

• A friend and I are planning a show at Christ Fellowship for February 27th. That date is getting extremely close...

• It's cooler to say that you are passionate about the church and service than it is to say you are passionate about the Gospel.

That's about it.

Lord, Save Me!

Sermon Title from Sunday: “Hosanna, In the Highest: Hope”

At Christ Fellowship we started the Advent Season and sermon series called “Hosanna In the Highest.”

Hosanna means save us we pray.

Okay - so we took communion and there is a section of scripture that I always read before I take communion: Therefore, brothers, since we have boldness to enter the sanctuary through the blood of Jesus, by the new and living way that He has inaugurated for us, through the curtain (that is, His flesh); and since we have a great high priest over the house of God, let us draw near with a true heart in full assurance of faith, our hearts sprinkled clean from an evil conscience and our bodies washed in pure water. Let us hold on to the confession of our HOPE without wavering, for He who promised is faithful. (Hebrews 10:19-23)

The passage of scripture that the message was based on was Psalm 118. (Check it out)

One of my pastors made the point that we have three ways to hope in God: hope in His character, hope in His works and hope in the coming One of God. (Jesus)

JESUS is our SALVATION and our ONLY HOPE.

I have never read my ‘communion passage’ when the word hope sticks out so much. So after asking the question: where is my hope? I read v 23 that says (in case you forgot): Let us hold on the confession of our hope without wavering, for He who promised is faithful.

Sunday was my connection point.

I Praise You, Lord. Save Me.

new place

so... I made a new post at http://emilymcguire.tumblr.com

check it out if you would like

break from accounting just in time.

So.. what to do when accounting has you down in the dumps ... post a BLOG!

I don't really even know where to start. It has been so long since I have written anything (a few months).

Well let's just start with the fact that I am addicted to music. I have been sitting at Spencer's (local coffee shop that I adore) for a few hours and my homework skills have been horrible because of the lack of music. I can't seem to focus without it. I feel like there should be a constant flow of Dave Barnes' "Everybody Knows But You," or Will Hoge's "Even If It Breaks Your Heart."

I do believe that ACCT 200 will be the death of me. I have taken a break from it to post a blog - I mean that's how serious it is.

So on to other things. I have recently realized how blessed I am. Just by looking around at life. And I guess I could say I have been blessed with material things... but the main thing has been friends. I am so unbelievably blessed with amazing people in my life. I have also recently realized that a few of those people are my parents and grandparents. I haven't been home since July (it's November officially) and I can start to tell that it is wearing on me. I am looking for any chance to go home. And the first time I can go home is going to be November 20th for my friend's wedding. That is a completely different story. When I go home - I never spend time with people from high school. Maybe because I don't really have any friends from there (except a few that I still keep in touch with) and I want to spend all of my time with my family. Well I have (get) to go to this wedding on the 21st and I am super excited, but that does mean seeing people that I haven't seen in a few years. I feel like it is a going to resemble a high school reunion - that should be interesting.

But.. back to what I was saying (high school anxiety aside) - my grandmother has recently been having health problems. She has had trouble in the past - colon cancer & tons of stuff because of that and she has been having tests run for some other reasons. My grandfather's health continues to deteriorate slowly. If you know anything about my family, you know how close I am to my grandparents. They practically raised me since I was six years old. My papaw (don't know why I have been calling them grandmother and grandfather - that's just weird) told me when I was younger (before my amazing dad came into the picture and adopted me) that he was my dad and that he would take care of me. My mamaw would always do anything for me and sacrifice anything she could for me. They have always been my heroes. And now to see their health failing and them relying on other people - it breaks my heart a little. And I still won't be able to see them until a few more weeks.

I was talking to a good friend about this whole situation and she gave me some great insight on the situation. She reminded me that the Lord is sovereign. It is a thought that you would think wouldn't escape my mind... but it does. It is so easy to try and take control in life. To think that what I want is the best thing for everyone else. But the truth is that it isn't. I am just one person who doesn't know what is best. So I will try to let go.

Let go and finish accounting - taking each day one at a time remembering the Gospel.

And can I just say - I am absolutely in love with my church right now. I mean... I couldn't ask for something better right now. It has been such an encouragement and challenge to me. Exactly what I have needed to grow. All I can say is Praise the Lord. He is amazing.... and what is that other word... sovereign.. yea. definitely that.

Life & Such

It has been pretty eventful - this life thing that is happening.

The title on my journal is "Life Begins".

I can tell you the reasoning behind that. It's not the fact that I just start living - but instead - this whole crazy life after being in a summer missions program. Sometimes it's just so hard to go from a place where you are always being poured into, encouraged, motivated and held accountable. But then life happens - and things aren't always perfect.

But on to life & what's been happening.

I am not the intern at CEI - Center for Entrepreneurship and Innovate at WKU and it's pretty exciting. I am doing "pr" work for them now and it's exciting. I get to actually come in to work and worry about projects, instead of doing silly things like filing (no fun).

School has been absolutely hectic. there are certain weeks throughout the semester that it seems like every professor you have joins together to give tests on the same two days. That was this week. I had three tests in my three class and then one on the next day. So one professor was merciful but 4 out of 5 had it out for me this week.

But the few people that didn't... Dave Barnes, Matt Wertz, Matthew Perryman Jones and Katie Herzig. I got to see all these wonderful musicians in Nashville at "Live On The Green". It was amazing. Usually concerts seems to be kind of hectic when they are free and outside. Everyone rushes the stage (especially if they have beautiful hair like the first two guys mentioned earlier). But instead I got to be contemplative. Instead of staring into Dave Barne's face being squashed by girls who love him, I was laying on the grass staring at the sky. It was marvelous.

The best part about the whole event, it was after a completely stressful day of three tests (darn professors). It was a night to unwind and forget about everything... which I did.. and then around 9:45 - I was reminded that I had an accounting 200 test scheduled for 9:10. GREAT. I could have regretted the night that I spent enjoying music and neglecting to study - but instead I saw it in the positive light - I wasn't able to worry about my test that next morning. So I guess it all worked out okay.

Life & Such.. God is good & life is beautiful.